KolonG "ticket to exit gate"

Think about movie "after sunset"and "before sunrise" when it storied of love couple togather cross the unexpectable story, spent time togather and it only them, very both of them. It's more wonderful than found thousand peny in golden land, more wild and crazy jorney of Tibet's climbing, and here it wrote under the illution faith, one beautiful evening, inda middle of the most hot town in java, between me and a man called Adot.

Citramedia Net, Ciputra, sept 23, 03.52PM. I even cant feel the cold air under that AC machine, my hand dancing through my chat room and i met him then, a while crazy man offer some beautiful flirt, still under that fuckin' hot AC machine words run away seemed like cross the lust poem, and damn....!! we're inda same place, his net box only 2 feet front of mine, bingo..!! i saw him standing and smile, i said to my self "God...you're not funny". shaking hand and two devils introduced their fire name. I dropped my boom next to him, suddenly his eyes fire catch my desire and dragon kiss crush on my burn lips, felt like mountain lava touch brain, it so fast and damn....., we just realize it was public area we're on, but smile bloom from his face and i back to my box, continue chat we trade number and his 1st sms came "wanna hang on out from here?" i text back "ok"

I can't see the afternoon sun but the air so damn hot touch my soul, we jump to the nice place call e-plaza, cup of hot capuccino side of my ice capuccino, whatta combination between heaven and hell. we talked much, storied came rolling us and when it come time took the pic, i kissed him.
i ran to the simpanglima court, he look at me deep and hold him tight, its so damn hot and sawn by those building sourround, we're kiss, and kiss.. fresh air come from my soul, notty freedom and attitude flying to nowhere. cant account how far we walk, jump to taxy tried find karaoke places, than time stop us for an exciting dinner. hot versus hot, desire catch the lust, and i saw rainbow in my stupid imagination. i knew i cant love him, he even never think bout anyother day we can meet again and repply tis momment, we're both notty boys, ugly duckeyguys, and i still keep my religion, i dont trust love i trust fuck, but this heart keep beating, and i denied my own honest feeling, but...i like him, and let the time kill my hope, if i can touch the pray, i do wanna with him for long that time, damn...i zaps myself to reality, i should enjoy every momment last, no hard feeling, not expected more, i knew he just wanted have fun, so did it. End up the meals we kept walk surround the mall, and suddenly his crazy wild mind catched his notty brain. it was at the corner of our floor, eyes spoke to found the exit gate, ran to enter it and lust blows up behind of that sign, that dark gate push our sin, lips on lips, body on body, pilar cross the cave, angel singing the song of satiesfaction and prince of hell fired our innocent mind, ...he's mine and i'm hims. Took the soul of love war, then we had write our history, between two lonely man, and love crush lamp to darkness, and it crown us to the land of wet, for me, for him and exit gate...

(08.54pm) sms came...."take care ya, nice to meet you...cheers!!"
(09.01pm) i repplied...."if God Dj then life is a dance floor, love is the rythm, and you are the music, now i'm dancing with my happy heart, thanks 4 the great evening. mwaaaaah!! :-*
(10.16pm) he text...."hehehe so sweet! thx u, my 'DIDUT'... Muaaaaach!

ps thanks aDot for the great story, one beautiful evening, and Simpang Lima

KolonG He's perfect but not the Mr.Right one

in a Gay life you may easy to falling in love when you met some guy you really think perfect, but remember...lot of Mr.Player out of there...
My story begin when I met a guy in chat, we did flirt conversations and end with sex. Through I did really liked him, he's totally my type, white, tall, nice personality, warm, big "dee" but not really great in sex, i was unsure about whether i did like him but i mess up with myself anyway. True he's great looking and still young but im not shallow its not all about looks. Little things annoy me about him when it was second time we did i thought i was going never high up. He really not perfect though everything i've ever wanted and then why do i feel like he's really not right for me? I really can't put my finger on whats wrong with him! i knew we both need sex but i never satisfied to. d'u have the same case here?

if it happen to you too, obviously that sometimes he isn't right for you. sometime people not only need look for their partner but service is also supported. (maybe) as a person, he is great, should (definitely) but he cant fancy you up! And what do we call people like him for but don't fancy? "Friends Only" :)
Just tell him gently but firmly that you like him but just for a friend, don't want a relationship with. and you will recover your self to be agreat man infront of him, dont lost very fast, you'll be fine step by step leting him go away from your life, I promise. it just one big lap of happiness and lust you've got, if he ask too much, no need explain things... You have to do it to make sure none can be hurted - and I did that, Just to tell him. I know what I want to-

ps. Arya...i knew you're perfect but not the Mr.Right one for me, sorry..

KolonG step to handle Possessive or Jealous Boyfriend

is it really tired you think when you have very touchy boyfriend? he asks you many questions, want to figure it out what you've done and what will you do. or sometime you being blocked of your time and freedom, any how you have lot pals to be cared for, and you need to go out somewhere without your bf follow you behind. i know maybe he loves you much but it's not the way he treat you and grab your life. in Gay Life we can found lot cases of this, figuring out how to handle your boyfriend’s jealously and possessive personality can be a delicate situation. We must understand in these situations is that the jealously and possessive behavior is usually a sign of the man’s insecurity and personal issues and not you. However, it does add a level of strain to relationships and needs to be discussed. The bottom line is to not let him manipulate you to the extent that it is changing your relationships, friendships and normal routine.

Don’t Let Him Manipulate You
If your boyfriend is possessive or jealous, you can’t let his manipulative actions affect you. By being possessive of you, he wants you all to himself and usually in these cases, the boyfriend limits the boy's ability to hang out with her friends and do things with others. He has to understand that only having a relationship with each other is not healthy. Should suggest he hang out with his friends, too, and that it will be good for your relationship.
Another tip to ease his jealous and possessive behavior is to assure him that he has nothing to worry about regarding your loyalty to the relationships. You must make sure he knows that you won’t waiver. Part of the insecurity comes from the fear that you will leave him for another man. To calm this fear, express your feelings for him on a consistent basis. It will make him more secure and hopefully make things better in your relationship.

You Need Friends, Too
In situations with a jealous or possessive boyfriend, the man's ability to hang out with girl or guy friends can be is limited, or restricted. In your mind, you think your boyfriend is being ridiculous and your instinct is probably to not even justify his thoughts. Though, you will need to communicate to him that you are not interested in other guys and to trust you. He also needs to understand that hanging around each other all the time is not healthy for your relationship. If he hangs out with his friends and doesn’t let you spend time with yours, then you probably shouldn’t put up with it.
Sometimes an overly jealous or possessive boyfriend can lead a boy to his tipping point and cause a break-up. However, it is not fair for you to be manipulated by a possessive boyfriend. It will not improve the health of your relationship and only cause drama. The main point to remember is that your boyfriend must be clear about your loyalty to him and that other people will not affect your relationship. If you can calm some of his insecurities, you may be able to keep your jealous or possessive boyfriend in a more neutral frame of mind.

ps. Adi, too much love will create some jealousy and possessive, so...sometimes love just enough, ok?

KolonG 3 step confidence to be more fashionable

1. If you look at a item of clothing and you really like, buy it! Your confidence shouldn't hold you back, people admire people with confidence.
2. Be yourself! Express how you are in what you wear. Don't follow off others. Having your own style can not only give you a major confidence but it also make people admire you because you're different. If you're not too confident in yourself- take it slow. One step at a time, build your look more unique.
3. If you really like something but dont think it's 'you' just fake it until it does become you..I remember doing that with try some new accessories. Being more fashionable is adding little things in to your outfits..start small.

Having your own style is about being cool and comfortable in yourself, find what you like and suits you!

ps. Alvin, you're rock, babe..!!!

KolonG Met a Player....Does He like Me? or Am I being used?

I met this guy in a glad situation, we liked each other basically right away. Things were good, and everything seemed to me go great, but he had always been really confused at what he wants and eventually we decided to just be friends.. he has a boyfriend for 6 year relations and i can see stuck and need fresh in life from his eyes. we kept a good in friend indeed, although friends never really happened, every time we were together we would end up having fun, or acting like a couple. We couldn't help it really. It really hurt us because we want nothing more than to be with. He would always text and hang out with me..come to my room and we were still having that kissing everytime we meet each other. Anyways, this had been going on for months, and then things started to disappear. one day He text me "love does exist, but true loe i doubt that. for me, maybe i love you but i love myself more, i have bf , and its my 6 year now, so...am i player?"

very confused, Is he using me? Should I just move on? I like him, but I am so confused at where he stands. It's almost like I am his fill in until something better comes along.

(Kriskan) text him but stay away from him for a week and let him know whether he really loves u or sex wid u,so simple.be wise in choosing or getting lied on a bed

(Leo) i would think the same if i were in your position. why dont you just confront him if you haven't already? if he says that he doesnt have any feelings for you then just leave. if he does, you still shouldn't have sex with him cause then he would think you're just a booty call. good luck :)

(Edolove) i think he might be using you just for sex. its not good. it seems like you guys are sex buddies... nothing more than that. he's getting what he wants out of you already (sex), without the relationship. i suggest that you keep your distance for a couple weeks.

(Kristiano) Relationships are a lot easier than people think, it's obvious he likes you, the question is does he respect you enough to show other people. If you are not getting everything that you want then move on.

(oni) He probably doesn't know what you want either. Have you talked to him after all this has happened? But don't close all your options and just wait for his answers, leave your options open and try dating other people too. He's probably doing the same until all is "official"

(Lando) I think that if he really wanted to be with you he would of made the sacrifice to be with u for real. if he has sex with you then leaves and does his own this he isnt for real about being with you. Im sorry but you dont need a guy who does that. YOu should think of yourself as a strong independent man who deserves a real man that will love u for u. physically and emotionally.

(Benny) im sorry hun, some guys are complete heartless jerks who use boy, and it sounds to me thats whats happening to you. never offer up the goods to a guy you havent been in a relationship for atleast 3 months or more or else they will have no respect for you and will continue to use you. im sorry again. hope things work out.

(raul) I have been in this same situation before but it lasted two years! Basically you need to lay all your cards out on the table and tell him what you want and how you feel. If he doesn't want the same thing or just ignores you then you need to move on. It is not easy trust me I know. But you will feel so much better once you ate over and past him. No guy is worth waiting around for if he acts like this. And if you are sharing parts of yourself with him and he acts like nothing really happened then you need to get out of this situation anyway.

KolonG Can You Trust Him?

Every gays has at least one horror story about a man who came into his life and turned out to be no damn good. Maybe he cheated on him, stole from him or sabotaged his friendships. Whatever dirty deed he did, some men just can’t be trusted and it’s better to know that before he takes off with your stuff -- or your heart. How do you know if you can trust the man you’re seeing?

1.You have met his people
If a boy is planning on using you and then kicking you to the curb, he won’t bother introducing you to his friends and family. Chances are if you have met the majority of his circle of friends, he’s planning to keep you around for a while. Having open, friendly relations with the people in his life is a good sign of his reliability.

2.Take note of his interactions with his friends and family. Does he frequently have screaming fights with his sister? Are you used to hearing about what a terrible person his best friend is? If he is constantly in conflict with or gossiping about the people that are supposed to be closest to him, it’s a sign that he might not be as trustworthy as you would like.

3.he is easy to reach
Being able to trust a boy has a lot to do with reliability and availability. If you can count on him to show up when he says he will, return your phone calls quickly and be open with his schedule, he’s probably pretty dependable.

4.If, on the other hand, he’s the kind of man who breaks plans at the last minute, takes days to call you back and is secretive about plans that don’t include you, you may have something to worry about. Of course, you shouldn’t have to keep tabs on him every move throughout the day, but a boyfriend you can trust will communicate with you on regular basis and not hide things from you.

4.He has normal relations with exes
If he’s on good terms with his exes, it’s a sign that things didn’t go terribly wrong in his past relationships and this bodes well for your coupledom. You don’t necessarily want her to be BFFs with her exes, but if all he has to tell about him relationships with them are horror stories, it might be a sign that she can’t be trusted. After all, he is the common denominator in all of those relationships. One or two bad breakups can be overlooked, but if he despises every guy he has ever dated, chances are you’ll join the list eventually. Don’t trust a boy who can’t say anything nice about the men that have come before you. Alternatively, you should question the intentions of a boy who has only lovely and complimentary things to say about all of his exes. There has got to be a reason they broke up and if he can’t identify it, he’s either lying or not very observant.

5.You have never caught him in a lie
Some people are excellent liars, but even the best will get caught in a lie eventually. Even little white lies can be a problem if they are told frequently enough. Even if it’s about something as silly as his real hair color, a lie is an indication that he doesn’t have trouble deceiving you. Trivial falsehoods can grow into major betrayals in no time. So if you catch him in a lie, call him on it and ask why he didn’t tell you the truth. If you have never found out he has lied to you, it either means she’s a champion fibber or he really is truthful and worthy of your trust. Your gut will tell you which one applies.

6.Time tells all
The only way you’ll know for sure if you can trust the boy you’re dating is through time and experience. It’s almost impossible to know for certain if you can truly trust someone after only a few weeks, but if he proves himself loyal, reliable and honest over time, you’ll know you have found yourself a good one.

ps. Alvin,...tell me how do i trust you? badboy....gggghhhrrrr.....!!!!

KolonG PEMENANG ATAU PECUNDANG?

pagi itu dia menanyakan "apakah aku seorang pecundang" saat gagal dalam bercinta? bertahun menjalanin hubungan dengan seseorang tetapi tidak bisa menjadi seorang pria sejati yang bisa mencintai dan dicintai dengan ketulusan, air mata ingin meleleh tapi aku terlalu sombong menguji arti sebuah belas. aku menatapnya, dan hatiku melakukan makar dengan rasa. beberapa bulan yang lalu sang waktu memang menemukan kami, sebuah situasi yang aneh tapi aku merasa aku dinobatkan sebagai malaikat kebahagiaan. Pekanbaru, sebuah kota yang indah untuk di rasakan tetapi terlalu pedas untuk menjalani sebuah kata "cinta", pertemuan yang sungguh indah seolah dia yg selama ini kucari, saat hati semakin yakin bahwa seorang pangeran kecil yg selama ini membuka peta mencari keberadaanku telah berakhir saat aku menatapnya, karena saat menatap, segalanya berubah, ak seorang talkactive dan tiba2 menjadi pendiam, aku seorang kreative dan tiba2 jadi si bodoh, bahkan saat bertemu dengannya, aku tak bisa bernafas, berfikir maupun berekspresi, aku telah jatuh cinta, tapi pertemuan ke-2 dan saat itu semua rasa, cinta, napsu dan impian memiliki bersatu, saat itu aku sudah yakin dia tidak merasakan hati yang sama, tidak ada tatapan "itu" dimatanya, dan aku gagal..tapi aku tidak merasa menjadi pecundang. sebuah romantika yang dipaksakan.

mungkin cerita ini sering terjadi di dunia kita, tak di pungkiri PLU (people like us) bisa dengan mudah jatuh cinta, saat bertemu dengan pria yang mungkin impianmu selama ini, atau dia pria yg selama ini kamu tunggu, tapi sang nasip berkata lain, dan kadang kita sering menyesal dan merasa menjadi seorang yang kalah.

bagi saya tidak ada yang menang atau kalah saat kita menjalani cinta, karna selalu ada yang dikorbankan diantaranya. banyak saya menemui orang yang mengaku"mengenal" cinta, tapi pertanyaannya adalah, apa cinta mengenal mereka, orang sering melupakan hukum dari cinta,"bahwa saat mereka mau mengenal cinta mereka harus juga siap untuk mengenal sakit", seperti malam dan siang, kebahagiaan-kesedihan, keindahan-keburukan, cinta juga mengenal hukum keseimbangan seperti itu. walau saya juga belum begitu paham tentang cinta, tetapi org bijak mengatakan "cinta terkadang seperti pecuri, datang tanpa pemberitahuan dan peginya pun tanpa pamit" dan yg kita temukan adalah sebagian dari perasaan kita hilang. jadi untuk menghadapinya berikan cinta seadanya sesuai porsinya, jangan berlebih,karena kita masih punyacinta2 lainnya yg menunggu kita di masa yg lain. seperti saat menuangkan air dari pitcher ke gelas, begitulah cinta,tuangkan air pd porsi gelasnya, jangan berlebih, karena saat kita menuang seluruh air dlm pitcher ke dalam gelas,maka air tersebut akan terbuang dengan sia2. akhirnya kita tidak bisa menikmati segarnya.tidak ada pecundang apabila kita gagal dlm cinta, saya diajarkan untuk berkata"jika kamu gagal dalam bercinta, mungkin cinta datangnya terlalu awal, atau kita sudah tertinggal" tapi saya akan diingatkan juga "some people comes, the other goes, so what? someone else waiting" jadi jangan menyerah...seandainya pun kita akan bertemu, jangan berikan seluruhnya buat cinta tersebut,berikan sesuai porsinya. dan genggamlah cinta sewajarnya, jangan terlalu erat,seperti kita menggenggam pasir, saat kita terlalu erat dia akan pergi darisela2 tangan kita, berikan kebebasan pada cinta.. dan genggam seperlunya, dan seandainya ia pergi, yakinlah bahwa dia memang bukan yg terbaik buat kita.saya tidak ingin berkotbah atau sok memberi petunjuk tentang cinta, karena hanya hati kita masing2 yg tahu bagaimana untuk mendapatkan cinta,mempertahankan, dan belajar untuk "rela"melepasnya. jadi saya bisa katakan tidak ada "pemenang" dan "pecundang" dilingkaran ini, tapi pertanyaannya adalah apakah anda sudah paham tentang hukum cinta tadi? tapi bagi saya, cinta bukanlah segalanya, tapi segalanya butuhcinta dalam hidup, jadi saya tau bagaimana saya meletakkan diri dalam cinta, karena kita yg mengendalikanya bukan sebaliknya :)

buat seorang yg baik, semoga kamu bisa paham, goodluck ya..

-SLIMO-

KolonG He Likes Me He Likes Me Not

how to know if some boy like you or not, my experience it just my own feeling, than i try to know deeply and I will tell you 10 things on how to know if someone likes you and If you like a him and don’t know if he like you back, then read this.

1. watch the way he looks at you. If he keeps looking at you, he just might like you
2. If he flirts with you too much, he probably likes you. Boys might flirt with you just for the fun of it, and it can be misunderstood as a crush. Watch out for boys who flirt.
3. If he acts weird or different when you come near him, he might like you. Watch his behavior when you are talking to him.
4. If he wants to pair you up with someone or says “I know who likes you,” then he probably likes you.
5. If he constantly tries to get close to you or touches you, he probably likes you.
6. If he turns red when you come near him or when you talk to him, that means he likes you.
7. He might ask you a few questions that might make you uncomfortable, for example if he asks have you ever had a boyfriend or have you ever been to a date, then he might like you.
8. Make friends with his close friends. They might say something about him liking you. Talk and flirt a little with them. If he gets mad for flirting with other people, then you know he likes you.
9. Start a small conversation with him and his friends. Try to notice these things:
   • If he keeps trying to get close to you or tries to hold your hand, he likes you.
   • If he is confident, they will match your voice tone and he will act like he does with his friends.
   • If he is shy, his voice tone might be a little higher or lower depending on what he acts like. He might smile and laugh nervously at your jokes.
10. If he says he likes you, then he likes you!

Tips:

• Be yourself. You don’t want to start acting like someone else, because he may start to lose interest in you.
• He might be looking at you while your not looking, so keep an eye out for him.
• If you know a boy likes you, try talking to him and be nice, dont talk to much and too high on your life.
• Try starting nice conversations.
• Compliment him. Boys like being complemented.
• Boys love good looking and good smelling boys. So try to dress nice and use perfume.

ps. For Yudy, thanks for the nice momment when we were happy that nite

KolonG True Love Doesn't Exist, is that true?

I was just wondering how many people believe that true love exist, or doesn't exist because they do believe nothing last forever. My Story begin when i had no idea came to Jogja because of someone, like story of the romance movie, i follow my heart to say "go there and get your love!!" and i did. but God speak other language coz i never get his Love.
I have been thinking about it lately and with the broken rate being so high and everything else like that I just feel like finding soulmate is kind of impossible. Maybe in life we have people that come in to help us out or change us in some way and then they leave, and we find someone else. I just think that I have given up all hope of finding my "soulmate" the one that will love me unconditionally. Is there anyone else that feels this way? me...yeah...i felt that very often. sumtime true love is such bullshit. we are being brain washed into thinking they need a love. Is up with that? they said they don't need love to make you happy. they think true love has died. Maybe in the 30s-60 true love was real. You watch movies like the notebook and it makes you depressed. sumtime (again) i dont belive, but sumtime I believe in true love. I also believe in stupidity. The latter is what f*cks up the former. Also, I think unconditional love is only for pets and family members. Romantic love is highly conditional. What is true love, what is soul mate what is life time partner! There is no answer. People should know that love just isn't enough. One person's concept of love may not be another's. We have this gray understanding of what love is for ourselves and we try to project it to our significant others. But that is the wrong way to go.
True love is to understand what your partner desires. It means good communication and not being yourself. True love is a combination of infatuation, companionship and committment. If one of them fails, the other two will kick end support the relationship. Maybe after a few years the infatuation wears off, but by then if both partners are willing there is a sense of companionship and committment. But if you don't have all three, a relationship falls down like a house of cards. so...tell me do you believe with true love?

ps. this story dedicate to SHAN....and our lovely "david cook", hahaha..miss that night... ;)