KolonG "Janji Cino"

Ada angin indah untuk berbagi, saling share dai YM, n aku sangat memahami dia, tapi waktu telah berputar keras, sekeras putaran badai padang pasir untuk sebuah pengakuan, 2 jiwa yang lemah, 2 jiwa yang lelah melayang, letih mengambang, butuh menginjak tanah, menjejakkan keresahan ke bumi, butuh diakui dan mengakui, tapi Janji belum bertemu, keinginan belum disatukan, diantara putaran otak, logika dan perasaan. berharap tak ada salah langkah, semua yg bernafas dibumi butuh proses, bukan paksaan untuk menjadi yang terbaik, yang diingini oleh napsu, semoga ada waktu terhenti pada kehidupan yg lebih baik,,

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chino'bdg+: sumpah aqku kangen bgt lho ma km mo

SuperSLIMO: gombal

chino'bdg+: serius

chino'bdg+: semalam aq tu kpikiran kamu

chino'bdg+: waktu aku di mall

SuperSLIMO: oya

SuperSLIMO: jadi terharu

SuperSLIMO: hihihihi

chino'bdg+: sebelum duitku raib

chino'bdg+: ea

SuperSLIMO: wadoh

SuperSLIMO: gara2 mikirin aku

SuperSLIMO: bad luck kan

SuperSLIMO: hahaha

chino'bdg+: aq tu inget2 ma kata km

SuperSLIMO: yg mana?

chino'bdg+: km jd inspirated q

SuperSLIMO: makasih, amin

chino'bdg+: kamu tu blg walaupun pemula tu, aq harus pinter dan

chino'bdg+: ga boleh salah jalan

chino'bdg+: gmn ea

SuperSLIMO: good, dan satu lagi..., jangan mudah percaya sama org yg baru dikenal, dunia ini penuh dengan teori kepentingan

chino'bdg+: aq susah ngomongin apa yg km omongin kmaren

chino'bdg+: aq cukup ngerti ma pa yg km blg tp aq blm bs ucapkkan

chino'bdg+: love you

chino'bdg+: love you imo

SuperSLIMO: love you too, ciqu

chino'bdg+: love you

chino'bdg+: sumpah aq berharap kamu ngebuktiin pa yg km omongin ke aku

SuperSLIMO: ini yg paling nggak suka, seolah kata2ku itu janji

chino'bdg+: kok gtew c ???

chino'bdg+: ;((

SuperSLIMO: knp dia nangis yah

chino'bdg+: semua yg km blg udah aq anggap inspirated bwt aq

SuperSLIMO: inget, aku selalu terbuka utk share, tapi aku, kamu dan semua org adalah jiwa2 yg bebas,

chino'bdg+: aq pengen km jadi presiden di hatiku

chino'bdg+: dan tolong jgn bunuh karakter itu dengan blg aq ga suka...

SuperSLIMO: nggak ah, aku pengen jadi penguasa hatimu

SuperSLIMO: heheheheh

SuperSLIMO: yg ada dlm nafasmu, hangat salirkan bulir darahmu

chino'bdg+: kalo tuhan ijinkan aq untuk disampingmu[cieh....] aq ga akan menolak itu dengan hatiku yg mnerima kodratku leleki[gay]..

SuperSLIMO: ;)

chino'bdg+: dan aq berharap ini ga hanya sekedar omongan

SuperSLIMO: udah ah ngomongnya gitu mulu

SuperSLIMO: oya masih laper?

chino'bdg+: masi

chino'bdg+: napa mang ??/

SuperSLIMO: sama

chino'bdg+: kamu jangan banyak gerak deh

SuperSLIMO: bener2 pengen makan padang

chino'bdg+: aq ga bosen2 ngeliat

chino'bdg+: kayanya ngeliat kpalamu yg gundul aq makin lapar

chino'bdg+: ;)

SuperSLIMO: ;)

chino'bdg+: bibir monyongmu tu lo

chino'bdg+: aduh....

chino'bdg+: nafsuku jadi bringas

chino'bdg+: tolong

chino'bdg+: ea

chino'bdg+: jgn buat aq makin tersiksa

chino'bdg+: uanjing

SuperSLIMO: hahaha

chino'bdg+: love you

chino'bdg+: lone you

chino'bdg+: love you

SuperSLIMO:

chino'bdg+: love you....................................................love you.....................................love you

chino'bdg+:

SuperSLIMO: duh bener2 ketiban kata love banyak banget neh hehehe

SuperSLIMO: ;)

SuperSLIMO:

chino'bdg+: :-*

SuperSLIMO: ;)

chino'bdg+: knapa ya aku jadinya kok yg bnr2 suka ma km

chino'bdg+: ??

chino'bdg+: ne ga gombal ea

chino'bdg+: awas klo anggap omonganku main2

chino'bdg+: kcuali km mang ga da feel ma aku c

SuperSLIMO: iya, aku tau, makasih untuk itu, ngomong jujur neh, aku baru putus ma cowokku 4 bln yg lalu sebelum aku ke bali, trus aku masih blm stabil ada org yg baik ma aku, ceritanya ada di blog juga pic nya, trus kita masa probation, ternyata dia bajingan, hatiku makin sakit, trus sekarang lagi jujur nih, sekarang lagi belum stabil, aku selalu menghargai org2 yg sayang ma aku

SuperSLIMO: tapi "kadang cinta butuh istirahat, butuh ketenangan, buat apa memaksakan memandang kalo yg ada hanyalah kekosongan" aku berusaha utk nggak mau nyakitin org, krn aku tau rasanya sakit

SuperSLIMO: jadi kita nikmati ini aja

SuperSLIMO: yah

SuperSLIMO: aku juga sayang kok ma kamu

SuperSLIMO: tp belum saatnya

SuperSLIMO: ;)

chino'bdg+: seharusnya kamu tau aq ini seperti apa, maunya aq gmn, karena km tau lbh banyak hasrat org yg seperti aq ini apa,

chino'bdg+: dan aq percaya kamu seperti apa

chino'bdg+: km jg tau kayaknya

chino'bdg+: gmn bs bs nekatnya seseorg yg lagi

SuperSLIMO: ya aku sangat tau, tapi biarkan rasa tumbuh pelan2, sayang.. dan nanti biarkan bibirku mencumbumu sebagai jawabannya, hehehe..

chino'bdg+: aku dibakar hasratnya pengen punya sosok soerang yg ga cuma dibayang2in rasa cinta ma suka sama seseorang kan ???

chino'bdg+: dan kamu juga pasti bisa ngerasai aq tu org yg gmn

chino'bdg+: km penulis kan

chino'bdg+: ???

chino'bdg+: pengarang

chino'bdg+: km bs ngarang hasrat seseorang yg lagi gila

chino'bdg+: gila ma kemauannya sendiri

chino'bdg+: gila

chino'bdg+: haus

chino'bdg+: haus

chino'bdg+: haus kasih sayang dr laki laki

chino'bdg+: terlebih aq

BUZZ!!!

SuperSLIMO: aku paham,,

chino'bdg+: semalam saat km ngomong pjg lbr ma aq,

chino'bdg+: ko kupas

chino'bdg+: ko kuliti semua

chino'bdg+: diriku

chino'bdg+: dan aq ko tusuk

chino'bdg+: aq percaya semua yg ko kataka

chino'bdg+: mungkin itu yg buat aq percaya ma kamu

chino'bdg+: dan tolong kau jangan permainkan aq

chino'bdg+: aq bs jd lbh ga stabil

chino'bdg+: klo kau yg permainkan aku

chino'bdg+: sebelum aku bs dptkan kau

chino'bdg+: minimal bertemu dengan mu, aku sudah puas

BUZZ!!!

SuperSLIMO: makasih, aku nggak permainkan kamu, aku hanya mau kamu setingkat lebih dewasa, menyaring semuanya dengan hati dan logika seimbang, bukan dengan napsu, coba tanyakan lagi apa bener km dah nggak pake napsu

SuperSLIMO: aku tau seumurmu harus lebih bisa mengontrol diri

SuperSLIMO: kita pasti bertemu

SuperSLIMO: tapi waktu yg akan jawab

SuperSLIMO: jangan menekanku

SuperSLIMO: kamu seorang lelaki, dan seorang lelaki harus bisa dibanggakan, coba bangun itu dan huat aku bangga sayang

SuperSLIMO: dari segi apapun

SuperSLIMO: kedewasaan dan pikiran, juga hidup

SuperSLIMO: dan aku percaya kamu bisa

SuperSLIMO:

SuperSLIMO: aku percaya

SuperSLIMO: aku nggak mau kita ketemu dengan kekosongan, aku mau semua sudah stabil dan matang masing2

SuperSLIMO: agar semua enak

SuperSLIMO: agar semuanya penuh arti

SuperSLIMO: km tau aku dah tua, bukan saatnya maen2 lagi

SuperSLIMO: aku harap km paham, sayang

chino'bdg+: ok

chino'bdg+: sekarang aku ga mau lagi di kalahkan oleh waktu

chino'bdg+: udah cukup

chino'bdg+: qa ga mau nuggu dan nunggu lagi

chino'bdg+: ini bukan nafsuku yg berbicara

chino'bdg+: ga da yg aq permaslahkan masalah ketuaanmu

chino'bdg+: aq bukan org yg memandang fisik

chino'bdg+: aq juga harus bs realistis dengan hidupku

chino'bdg+: aq ga mungkin bs ngerasai enak

chino'bdg+: klo ga skrg aq usahakan

chino'bdg+: aq hrs secepatnya

chino'bdg+: meraih kebahagianku sebelum aq bnr2 gila

chino'bdg+: kerja

chino'bdg+: kuliah

chino'bdg+: bahagia

chino'bdg+: hidup

chino'bdg+: kemauan

chino'bdg+: impian'

chino'bdg+: kpan tu terwujud klao aq hanya mendengarkanmu mengatakan aq harus sabar debgan kemampuanmu

chino'bdg+: apa aku ga bs berusaha disamping usahamu ??

BUZZ!!!

SuperSLIMO: aku seneng, kamu selangkah lebih dewasa, itu yg kuinginkan, itulah kenapa aku ajarkan tentang visi, tentang pandangan ke depan malam itu, semua kulakukan utk mu agar bisa manju dan buktikan ke dunia kalo seorang Cino bisa maju, dan saat kamu suksespun aku iklas kalo kamu dengan yg lain, bukan aku

SuperSLIMO: ;)

chino'bdg+: aq ingin itu semua terwujud secepatnya sayang...

SuperSLIMO: kutunggu, jadi biarkan aku menata management hatiku dulu dan kamu berjuang untuk maju, kamu masih muda, msh banyak yg bisa kamu lakukan untuk ngebuktiin,,

chino'bdg+: mxdnya ???

SuperSLIMO: pahami lagi kata2ku

chino'bdg+: ngebuktiin ??

SuperSLIMO: NGEBUKTIIN KALO KM SUKSES

SuperSLIMO: membuat dunia bangga akan seorang Cino

SuperSLIMO: sukses disini adalah stabil, independence dalam segala hal

chino'bdg+: sampai kapan aku harus duduk disine, melihatmu, mendengarkanmu,???

chino'bdg+: seminggu,sebulan ???

chino'bdg+: setahun ???

SuperSLIMO: jangan buat aku sedih,,

chino'bdg+: sampai kapan ??

chino'bdg+: bln dpn ??

chino'bdg+: sampe aq mati penasaran ???

chino'bdg+: aq ga sanggup nunggu

chino'bdg+: aq mo ngeraih tu semua

chino'bdg+: aq jg ingin berusaha

chino'bdg+: aq ingin seperti yg kau katakan imo

SuperSLIMO: kita disini bukan untuk sehari, seminggu dan sebulan, waktu kita masih banyak, jangan takut kehilangan aku, aku masih disni, masih disini,,

chino'bdg+: kalo kau mau berusaha untuk diriku

chino'bdg+: knapa aku hanya menunggu kbr darimu ??

chino'bdg+: sumpah

chino'bdg+: q ga ngerti ngomong gmn

BUZZ!!!

chino'bdg+: aq bosan

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chino'bdg+: ;((

SuperSLIMO: trus semua salahku? aku bisa aja membuat kamu jadi apa, tapi aku nggak mau, aku mau km independence, berjuang sendiri untuk membuktikan kamu bisa, aku nggak mau ada yg tergantung dan digantungkan disini, itu makna buat aku bangga

chino'bdg+: ;((

SuperSLIMO: kalo memang nggak bisa, ya mungkin ada jalan lain, mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik untukmu, tapi setidaknya aku bahagia pernah memberikan semangat buat kamu

chino'bdg+: aku mau kamu imo

SuperSLIMO: ;(

chino'bdg+: jangan suruh aq atau bilang org lain

chino'bdg+: aku mau kamu

chino'bdg+: aku mau kamu

chino'bdg+: kamu

chino'bdg+: kamu yg buat aku

chino'bdg+: mengerti apa yang aku mau

chino'bdg+: aq ngerasa mungkin kamu lah yg 'Dia'

chino'bdg+: beri untuk membuat aq mengerti jalanku

chino'bdg+: tolong jgn kau sebut org lain disine

chino'bdg+: aq ga berharap kau mengasihani aku

chino'bdg+: kalau kau merasa aq mengharapkan sesautu

chino'bdg+: darimu

SuperSLIMO: tak sedikitpun aku berpikiran seperti itu, aku hanya ingin memahamimu, memberi semangat kepadamu utk kuat menjalani hidup, mau menjadi org yg bisa diajak share, dan akhirnya kamu semangat, menjadi kuat dan tegar, itu yg kumau darimu

chino'bdg+: dengar

chino'bdg+: aku

chino'bdg+: cuma mau kamu!!

chino'bdg+: aku bukan org lemah imo, aku kuat

chino'bdg+: aku kuat!!

SuperSLIMO: aku sangat paham kamu, ya, aku sangat paham, tapi jangan paksakan sesuatu yg aku sendiri masih belum bisa, kau tau keadaanku, kelemahan hatiku dan ke tidak stabilan perasaanku, jangan tekan aku, ok aku sayang sama kamu tapi kumohon tidak secepat ini, hal yg cepat tidak akan baik, semua butuh proses, dan kalo kamu nggak mau mengalami proses itu, ya,, aku nggak tau harus gimana,,

chino'bdg+: sumpah bodoh

chino'bdg+: aq ga tau

chino'bdg+: bodoh ko ya

chino'bdg+: aq suka ma kau

chino'bdg+: anjing

chino'bdg+: aq mau kamu!!

chino'bdg+: nksfd8[ejivtg9otugrvhbioynjmv/t;kgnivnwve cxbh,ggnnjmtyfihojgukdtbuyj4k,hjti,fk

chino'bdg+: aq ga mau

chino'bdg+: ga mau

chino'bdg+: ga mau

chino'bdg+: ga mau nyoba mahami org lain lagi

chino'bdg+: kau cukup dan aku rasa

chino'bdg+: tau!!

chino'bdg+: aq

chino'bdg+: aq percaya ma kata hatiku imo

chino'bdg+: sekarang aku mendengarkan kata hatiku

chino'bdg+: aq hanya ga mau

chino'bdg+: bodoh ah......................................................

BUZZ!!!

SuperSLIMO: sekarang aku baru paham apa yg orang selalu katakan,, "kadang cinta datang terlalu cepat, atau kita sudah tertinggal"

SuperSLIMO: aku juga bingung

SuperSLIMO: entahlah

SuperSLIMO: yg jelas aku sangat tau

SuperSLIMO: kamu sayang ma aku

SuperSLIMO: tapi hatiku masih butuh ketenangan, aku nggak mau salah langkah lagi

SuperSLIMO: aku nggak mau sakit lagi, atau menyakiti org lain

chino'bdg+: kadang cinta datang terlalu cepat, atau kita sudah tertinggal"

chino'bdg+: kau yg blg

chino'bdg+: tp ko ga percaya kan???

chino'bdg+: ''aku nggak mau salah langkah lagi''

chino'bdg+: kau anggap apa prasaan ku ??

BUZZ!!!

SuperSLIMO: sudahlah, kalo kamu begini terus kamu nggak akan dewasa, nggak akan bisa memahami kata "AKU" dan "KAMU" menjadi "KITA", kau tuntut aku terus untuk memahami kamu tapi kau nggak pernah bisa tau perasaanku, keinginanku

SuperSLIMO: kaupaksa aku terus paham kamu, kapan kamu paham aku?

chino'bdg+: sumpah...aku lemas

SuperSLIMO: sekarang kita balik, kalo posisi kamu adalah posisiku

SuperSLIMO: kamu lagi hanjur

SuperSLIMO: lagi nggakl stabil

SuperSLIMO: dtg org yg sayang ma kamu

SuperSLIMO: kamu tau dia sayang

SuperSLIMO: apa aku salah kalo aku nggak langsung bisa nerima dia

SuperSLIMO: krn butuh pembuktian

SuperSLIMO: butuh dia harus stabil juga

SuperSLIMO: dlm kehidupan dan kedewasaan

SuperSLIMO: dan satu lagi'

SuperSLIMO: kamu belum pernah ketemu juga,

SuperSLIMO: apa aku salah

SuperSLIMO: coba rasakan kalo km jadi aku

SuperSLIMO: dan rasakan kalo kamu juga sedang nggak stabil dalam semua hal

SuperSLIMO: tapi terus ditekan

SuperSLIMO: aku hanya berharap tak ada salah langkah, semua yg bernafas dibumi butuh proses, bukan paksaan untuk menjadi yang terbaik, yang diingini oleh napsu, semoga ada waktu terhenti pada kehidupan yg lebih baik,,

chino'bdg+: terserah mau kau apa

aq hanya tau' waktu,proses,cinta,nafsu,stabil dan semua tentang dirimu,,

chino'bdg+: ga ngerti ;((

KolonG "TOBE A SINGLE GAY AND VERY HAPPY"

Here I'm in Bali, where's else place I should stay when all people around this entire world coming and enjoy sun? lot joys here, lot clubs, lot have fun!! but still I'm single, doesn't mean no one love me, but,, oh...boy, don't ask how many souls already propose me to be part of them, hehehe.., but.... here I enjoys my self being like this, and If you one of my part, SO WHAT? enjoy this live and you may find sumthing new here in planet,, :B

I know When you’re single, everyone asks you the same question. When are you getting in relationship with the boy? why aren’t you choose any guys to be your love? wanna make love with me? Whatever the reason is you’re probably tired of hearing it.
It can sometimes be even worse if you’re single, in your thirty’s and you don’t even have a steady mate. People sometimes wonder what’s wrong with you. The answer to that question is obviously nothing. You can be happy and single without a mate.

The first step to being single and happy is to be happy with yourself. If you are happy with who you are then it won’t matter what other people say or think. Because there will be many times as a single person that you will want to go out and do something but don’t have any one to do anything with. For example, if all of your closest friends are married or have a significant other you may feel like a third wheel hanging out with them. Or the only free time these couples may have they want to spend it alone with each other or other couples. This is no time to feel sorry for yourself. Get out of the house and do something. Don’t be afraid to do your favorite activities by yourself.

Don’t be afraid to go to a restaurant by yourself either. Instead of having someone to talk to before, during and after your meal, bring a book or magazine to read. It will pass up the time. You’ll also notice that your meal is brought to you faster when you are by yourself than when you are with a date or a few people. I don’t know if it is because cooking one plate of food is quicker than cooking two or more and having them ready at the same time, or if the waiter is trying to get rid of you sooner by having you eat quickly so that they can get you out of their so a couple can have your table.

You can even go to concerts or sporting events alone. You can certainly enjoy these events without having someone with you. Sometimes you may end up talking to the person next to you, especially at a ball game.

Just because you are single and without a mate, doesn’t mean you should sit around the house and mope. If you want to go someplace and have no one to go with, go out by yourself. You can still have a wonderful time.. ;)

KolonG Saturday Nite Gay Education, Many Straight Men Have Gay Sex

Thanks for Daniel J Denoon already inform this articles, and edited by Chang from MD Health news.

Nearly 10% of Self-Proclaimed 'Straight' Men Only Have Sex With Men
Nearly one in 10 men who say they're straight have sex only with other men, a New York City survey finds. And 70% of those straight-identified men having sex with men are married. In fact, 10% of all married men in this survey report same-sex behavior during the past year. This means safe-sex messages aimed at straight and gay men are likely missing this important subgroup, suggest Preeti Pathela, DrPH, New York City Department of Health and Mental Hygiene, and colleagues.
"To reduce the burden of sexually transmitted diseases and HIV infection among men who have sex with men, it is of utmost importance for [health care] providers to take a sexual history that ascertains the sex of a partner," Pathela and colleagues report. "Asking about a patient's sexual identity will not adequately assess his risk."

Straight Men Who Have Sex With Men

In 2003, Pathela's team performed telephone interviews with nearly 4,200 New York City men. They conducted the interviews in English, Spanish, Chinese, and Russian; a translation service helped with interviews in Greek, Korean, Yiddish, Polish, and Haitian Creole. In nearly every study of sexual behavior, the percentage of men who report sex with men is higher than the percentage of men who report being gay. So Pathela and colleagues first asked the men if they were bisexual, gay, or straight. Then they asked about specific sexual behaviors.

Some of the findings:

• Straight-identified men who have sex with men report fewer sex partners than gay men.


• Straight-identified men who have sex with men report fewer STDs in the past year than gay men.


• Straight-identified men who have sex with men are less likely than gay men to report using a condom during their last sexual encounter.


• Straight-identified men who have sex with men are more likely to be foreign born than gay men.

Also, a man who says he is straight but is having sex with other men is more likely to be married than a straight man who has sex with women, according to the survey. Only 54% of the men who say they're straight and have sex with women are married, compared with the 70% marriage rate among the men who say they're straight but have sex with men. Pathela and colleagues note that because they report fewer STDs and fewer sex partners than gay men, straight-identified men who have sex with men may think they are at lower risk of HIV and STDs. This isn't necessarily so.

The men with whom these straight-identified men have sex may themselves have multiple sex partners and elevated STD and HIV risk. The low rate of condom use makes the straight-identified men vulnerable. "Prevention messages should focus on the activities that pose risk -- for example, unprotected receptive anal sex -- and should not be framed to appeal solely to gay-identified men," Pathela and colleagues suggest.

PS. for BudhyBug....peace, ok?

KolonG "his nick name MARGO"

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KolonG "this ain't a love story"

Have you ever match with someone you just met? You browse in your manjam or facebook and when you met him you really feel so deferent like you ever met before in your before life –Dejavu-. Or How’s when you meet some boy, you really like him, you comfort being with him, together spend so much time and both of you guys so intimate but there’s no love feeling inside. This is not love story nor the romantic moment but only 2 soulmate matches together in one some other time, some other space of happiness. In gay life its very often happen in our time, sometime we try to figure it out if is it love or is it just intimate moment, some other situation both of us convinced that already have a boy friend each. Take some test is it love blooming or a friendship expectation?
My story was begin song long time ago when i was living in Jogja, and I'd love to tell here for you, Here’s my story..

[EmoBoy] hey I’m in jogja now, can we meet this is my number 0819312*****

[me] sure, let’s meet, mine 08172*****

Saturday night, Greenz Café Seturan, than its like wind blow we’re sms and decided the right place for meet, talk much, laugh much, and what I felt that time, happy to have a new pal, looking of his eyes like I run away thought the green grass in the middle of freeze morning and it became peace through my heart. Emo is great boy, being honest he’s totally my type, skinny and tall, nice black smooth skin, fat hair and seemed that he’s kinds and truly need just friend. I see him deeply that night, the way he talked, smile and touch my hand make me felt so comfort, seemed like never show any naughty mind in his head. -first test- I touch his back and his hair while we were talking, he looked at me back and smile, I knew firstly he felt un comfort but heart and mind of him let me to do that touch away with no regret, his eyes seemed to say it just of care as a best pal, and he also enjoy time to be touched so much fun. What make my weekend much bright when it came 2^nd night of our met , Sunday, we’re in other café, Earth Café Babarsari, so much fun while we were browsing gay porno web inside the public, hehehe… that was stupid but we didn’t fucking care with others, close to midnight went to my room and we’ve got plenty of time to chat. –second test- holding him from behind, and his response still same, smile and said how comfort he got that hold said “nice, bro..” it came midnight when I bring him back I felt like I wont lose him, I want some more time being together, gonna miss him badly, -last test- sms him that I miss him and wish we can more further than just a friend, he replied to thank an wish we can be a best friend, just a best friend. Bingo…!!! Congratulation….!!! He past the test and it make me sure that this is what I’m looking for, pure friend with no benefits, and kinds. Together with him again is all what I want, and there will be no more dirty mind inside. Friendship is everything, best friend is the best gift that we deserve to get in this entire world, and some time we already got even we never realize..

Ps. For my EmoBoy, Thanks for the best weekend, bro. keep in touch ok? I’m gonna miss you… ;(

KolonG "how to tell him you love him"

I just walk at Legian Street here in Bali, and suddenly I saw some boy, damn...he remind me about someone in Jakarta, and a story begin to crush in my head,,

thought Jakarta, that big city full of love, desire and lust, i love Jakarta. i love this wild life and full of combat.
It has been long time i found him in chat and i did crush on him much, i called him "MonCher". we met and all started there, but my lips seemed locked up and have no idea to tell him i love him. he seemed nice, but me? never had confidence to said.. i still remember that nite when we're very first time met, i was frozzen infront of the light bright upon my vision, i thought he's not human, he's angel, perfect of eyes and smile, bright smooth skin of moon, and when i heard his voice, i even forgot how to spell any words but LOVE. he brought me to the "heaven" club, i did feel care inside, i felt that flame, so up and burned my heart, i was in love with him, but dont know he like me or he like me not, all i've had thinking is wanna be close with him, hold his heart and kiss him like i never let him go away from air i breath, than i zaps myself that my heart just flew with one side love of fair. it wasn't big mistake to love him even he never did back. but story with him was unforgatable memories. i even lost in space for long time wondering he come and love me back, just my imagination but i never hurted. love him is a gift and knowing he never love me back is a bless, hover i'm happy ever had that chance.
now life has change, and i do still love him, but i'm happy to see him happy, here the article i may share if you were me that time, and has no idea to tell him that you love him.. than you'll never feel what i felt that time ;)

Telling him "I love you" is an important step in building intimacy in arelationship step. It's three words that weigh a lot and says a lot about your commitment propose to him. Therefore you should be absolutely positive, you love him before you smash that sentence and also be prepared for all possible responses.

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Step 1, Think about when and where you want to tell him. Is there a special place you want to be? A certain day? For example, you might want to tell him at the restaurant where you ask him go out, this one good way to show him you have nice taste togather.
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Step 2, Set the mood and be romantic. Buy him a little romantic gift or something that sets a romantic tone. not to expensive but this thing make him built romantic way to remember you, and you're the best man easy to make him happy.
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Step 3, Look at him directly, take his hand and tell him how positive you feel about him. Give him examples of things about him you really like. Be sincere. no more drama queen act, it will make you look so player infront of him.
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Step 4, Tell him how you feel if you can share love and happiness with him, and how much you enjoy time together in fortune. Be specific about what you value and appreciate about being with him next, make some offering what he want and what you can give to him, flatter him up to the sky.
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Step 5, Follow these positive statements with telling him you love him in whatever way feels best for you. For example: "I feel I've come to love you," "I realize I love you," "I dont know bout love and how to make you happy but I feel so much love for you," "I've fallen in love with you," or simply, "I love you."
6. Step 6, if you're fail and he deny you, keep on smiling and continue your romantic sense, your nice face maybe the best way to change his idea to give you more chance if he can't accept you that time, keep in mind love is ain't easy to get but believe that always miracle after you face your bad momment. keep make him believe you love him

well...thats my simple way and hope it can be usefull for your step to tell him you love him, prepare all and pick your love now ;)

ps. dear Henz Lim, thanks for the nice short story you've gave, being with you teach me how to love patiently... miss you, "MonCher" ;)

KolonG "3 step to start a new relationship"

How will you know when it is time to begin dating again? If you are a baby boomer and have been out of the dating scene for many years, you may be wondering if you will ever be ready to take that step and meet the right person again.

As we get older [like me I'm 30] our lives become much more complicated. Dealing with work, raising dreams, caring for elderly parents, and thinking about our own health and retirement can be overwhelming under the best of circumstances. But you owe it to yourself to get on with your life and find that special person to share your life with. Here are some ways to get started if you are not sure you are ready for a new relationship.

1. Find someone out of there, who is also single, go to the societies crowd, cafe, restaurant, mall, or even ask your friend society. you may open your dating channel in browse, facebook or friendster, manjam or gayromeo, choose the good one, no rush, think twice before you meet, calling each much better to start one good step, and make sure he's the real one, to go with on a practice date one evening. Tell this friend that you want to start dating again and that you want to see what the experience will feel like. You can go to dinner and a movie and just get a feeling for what it is like to be alone with someone in this type of setting.
2. If this feels right to you, ask your friends to suggest someone who may be available and interested in going on a date. Your friends are usually more than happy to set you up with someone they think would be right for you.
3.When you found one, Don't go too quickly. Think about the qualities you would like in a new person, and write them down. This gives you an opportunity to quantify the traits and characteristics of the person you may want to share your life with. Remember, dont ask too much in first, let it flow, see how wonderful he is, time will show what kind of love you will feel among.

If you are serious about wanting a new relationship, you will know it after you have taken the steps I have listed above. You will know because of the way you feel. Always think about how you are feeling and let that be your guide to starting a new relationship of any kind.

have a nice try and may you'll find the best one

[SuperSLIMO]

KolonG "Love Young Guy, is it wrong?"

Is it wrong to go out with a guy younger than me? Why lot guys sometimes prefer older men than younger one? friends of me said "slimo...wake up!! he's too young" or some said "are you being use?" "does he only need your money?" yeah..lot of my friends worried bout me, but I know young guy prefer older one because they feel like older more mature, but for me though age doesn't always define maturity, it's just the way that I feel about younger guys. On top of that. youngers feel like older guys are more 'protective' or they feel like there's a sense of security when haveing date with them. it totally right, but who say I can't be spoiled by him? sometime younger can be more protect and mature than older, and i can feel With my younger guy, I dont have to be the one to 'protect' and to be the "bigger person" for him, to say the least. For me, age not always show us who is the young and who is the old? but love It's hard to explain but hopefully it made a little sense. Am i wrong? ;)

In my opinion, age has only a small correlation with maturity and experience. Plus, two people with very different background, experiences, and ages can be fall in love. What really matters is if there is strong mental bond. I see a relationship very differently, even sometime I'm too obsessed with my being old, so dating with younger guy make me more young and strong in any cases.
my friend said do not to shame having a younger love, Stop worrying about being my old. No one is old till you think you are too old. yeah...he's right, I'm 30 and my love he's 18, but “When we are intimate, it is like gasoline and fire.” So I throw this idea out of my mind that I'm old, and just because he is younger than me, or he just a “kid” I can be serious, no...no..., he's so profesional in it. If it happen to you I'm gonna said dont be afraid having a younger love too, beacuse "If you ignore men on the basis of age, you will be single the rest of your life".
well...you'll never know how wonderfull my life now having this kid as my partner.

Now I learned tobe confidence to show my love's life, While telling lies is part of our lives, lies do come to bite us. If I love a person, I will not only be proud of introducing him to the rest of the world, I will also say everything else that is great about him. so why should I have to shy having younger guy for my love?

Note: iBay...love you, huney ;)

KolonG "Cintaku Dari Pulau Dewata"

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AKU SAYANG KAMU, AY....

[Made Bayu Segara,Wednesday, February 10, 2010]


NOTE:
I just met him in 48hours ago, and I was realize that I love him from the first sight, yeah...he said to me I always falling in love easily, I'm Tired, i need some space now. though the sky still blue in Bali, but my heart fire as red as well. I know I have to stop this feeling in flash, i'm afraid being refused, now i wanna love him in silence, in silence i find no rejection, and in silence no one cant own him but me, but suddenly....I've got his message to day, I'm so happy and so high as well ;) and keep asking my self, does he feel the same way like I feel about him too? he texted me that he miss me so, damn...I love him so this much ;)
I hate myself tobe like this, but I love the way I feel so indeep to Him ;( love you My'iBay... wish we can make our dreams come true ;)